THE HAPPINESS QUOTIENT

People say I talk negative… I write negative and maybe I dwell on negativity… and I agree no less…I mean I too am sick of writing those prosaic stuffs… writing those posts were meant to dump the shits out of my mind…a way to escape loneliness and boredom of life…but the more I tried to escape them the more I got strangled in the webs of life… alright!!! I agree that I have made some stupid decisions in my life…some real stupid and insane decisions… but hell, who doesn’t!!! That’s thing about the stupid decisions…everybody makes one…

And this time I am not gonna discuss about the theories of a jinxed life or about what more can get wrong in my life….no!!! this time I am just gonna relax and reflect back at the things that make me happy J

So here I go…

…I am happy whenever I pluck the strings of my guitar

…I am happy whenever I am with my friends (even with one good friend)…it’s like a blissful moment when I feel myself apart from all the worries and tensions of life…

…I am happy when I am with my family…

…I am happy whenever I solve a problem…either from my life or from my textbook

…I am happy whenever I read the story of a survivor…people who dared to think different and change the world…when the others thought they would end up as losers (Steve jobs, Lance Armstrong, Bill gates etc are some examples)

…I am happy whenever I walk in the rain…I love the drops of rain…it’s so reckless and free

…I am happy whenever I watch a good movie or listen to a good song

…I am happy whenever I see the sunrise (which obviously is a rare case…thanx to my abnormal sleeping habits)

…I am happy when I am drunk…coz then I DO things

…I am happy whenever I prove people wrong

…I am happy whenever I do things differently from others

…I am happy whenever I accomplish the job that I had set up to do

…I am happy whenever I am at my “bakchod” best… (ask my room mates) :P

…I am happy whenever I receive attention…yeah!!! I gotta admit it…I love attention ;)

…I am happy whenever I receiver “her” message…doesn’t matter if it’s a forwarded one

…I am happy whenever I break the rules

…and though it may seem strange….but I am happy when I am alone…not that I want to (I seriously hate lonliness) but it is the when I talk to myself and I get a chance to be real me

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I can go on and on and on… I mean there are millions of things that make me happy…so why not concentrate on the moments that make happy rather than those which make me sad… yeah!! That’s what I want to be…HAPPY…I won’t mind breaking rules…I wont mind getting drunk… I wont mind proving people wrong…I wont mind people calling me crazy or childish…n I wont mind being lonely… coz there’s nuthing wrong in doing or being anyone of them, if it makes me happy…

Wake me up when december ends!!!

Before I begin…let me tell you that its an another sad post…so if you don’t want to spoil your “happy happy” mood then please don’t read it…it might irritate you as to why I always write these kinda stuffs…so its for you to decide to read it or not.. and don’t blame me for putting these posts up coz I feel like writing only when I am sad… :X …whom am I saying this!!!...nobody reads my blog…(Shalini, you are an exception)

Enough gyan!!!

Life is  strange …… it has its own funny way of presenting things… things you never thought would happen in your life… things you  never thought you would do in million years…but they happen…and they change your life forever…

life never works according to the plan…it never has and it never will…everybody knows it…then why do we feel sad and depressed when our plans don’t work… strange it may sound but this is how life works… I am not complaining that it hasn’t worked for me again…its just that it always happens with me…and each time it hurts even more than before…I often wonder why its always me who is at the receiving end…Should I become numb to all emotions?? Am I a stupidly poignant person who just doesn’t know how to handle his feelings?? Am I an over desperate person?? Or may be I am just a jerk who is always at the wrong place at the wrong time!!!! Whatever,  I dunno… people often say that I am not mature enough that’s why I end up like in these situations… they say that I am still a kiddo… a child at heart… they think I am a callow…but I don’t think so… I mean yes…I do agree that my heart is a child…a part which refuses to grow up!!! but there’s a part of me that understand emotions and better than anyone else... there’s a part which is mature enough to understand people… a part that can read faces even with my eyes closed … a part which if, once, decides to achieve something, ends up achieving it… a part that nobody knows…a part that I don’t show to anyone… and those who know me well would know what I am talking about…

Nitish, my best buddy, always says that I don’t share my pains with anyone… I’ll just write some stupid blogs and grim poetries which nobody reads… I know a person reading this post wouldn’t agree but I am a very happy-go-lucky guy…always in that usual gala mood… but when it comes to that “sad version” of me, I myself don’t know as to why don’t share or tell anyone about my feelings…maybe this is why my pain intensifies…but, this is how I have always been…and I cant change overnight…but someday I will…I’ll have to… a lot of things has to be changed now…and I guess, I need the change…as I said, some incidents change your life forever… may be its the time to change mine…

And I know that my loved one’s will always be there for me…and for my support…and though there are only few people who really love and care for me…I don’t mind the number…as long as they love me…and it includes you too…if you have read this post till the end…coz only a loved one will put aside his ego and stand there beside you in spite of all your imperfections…in spite of all your failures… in spite of all your mistakes…

Thanx for bearing with me :) I hope that the change will bring good to me…

P.S: please don’t ask me the reasons for this post… you know, I won’t tell…

FLOWERS IN DECEMBER

Empty it was…empty it is…and perhaps, empty it shall be… yup!! I am talking about the month of December…I dunno how but somehow the month of December brings out the feeling vast emptiness that lies hidden, somewhere, within me… ironic and absurd it may sound but this emptiness kinda makes me feel complete… yeah, it does… and somehow I relate to this cold season more than anybody/anything else in the world… it reminds me of good old days, the shenanigans of life and more importantly, it reminds me of the stories that remained unfinished…
December....it truly is a magical month...at least for me 

Anyways, keeping this crap a little short, I wanna dedicate a song to the month of December and to the “stories that remained unfinished”…it’s called “Flowers in December” by Mazzy Star…i hope you will like it...njoy the song

FLOWERS IN DECEMBER

Before I let you down again,
I just want to see you in your eyes.
I wouldn't have taken everything out on you,
I only thought you could understand.

they say every man goes blind in his heart,
and they say everybody steals somebody's heart away.
and I got nothing more to say about it
nothing more than you would me.

send me your flowers of your december,
send me your dreams of your candied wine.
I've got just one thing I can't give you...
just one more thing of mine

they say every man goes blind in his heart
and they say everybody steals somebody's heart away
and I've been wondering why you let me down
and I've been taking it all for granted

P.S: no, I am not drunk…just feeling a bit high J

P.P.S: out of all the things that I am gonna leave behind... I’ll miss Delhi’s winter the most L

3x7

Another TAG!!!

In this one, there are 7 lists and you have to fill in three things in each one...the rules are as follows:

- Tag as many u want!

- Link their pages in your tag post

- Post a message / leave a comment screaming that they r tagged

- Mention the person who tagged you in your tag post, and link their blog.

- Write 3 X 7 things about yourself ..

3 places i would pack my travel bag for:

1). Any hill station: I just love hill stations…be it Dajeeling or Patnitop or Shimla...

2). Berlin: well, I am very interested in the Nazis and the World War 2 stuffs…

3). Cayman Islands: I have heard a lot about the place… and it’s said to have one of the most beautiful islands in the world

3 On-Screen characters i love to watch :

1). Barney Stinson: I love this character…he’s cool, witty, a womanizer,a top executive in a bank…in short he is everything I am not and everything that I wish to be J

2). Lizzie McGuire: Lizzie McGuire, played  by Hilary Duff, used to be my crush in high school… and I still love her :P

3). Al Pcino: Oh boy!! He is “The Godfather”… Al Pacino has immortalized his character of Michael Corleone… truly, he's the God of acting   

3 moods that describes me the best  :

1)      Happy Go Lucky: I am usually in a happy go lucky mood…

2)     Confused: I am perennially confused… right from deciding my dinner to the aim of my life… I am CONFUSED :P

3)      LAZY: I am Lazyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!

                                                                     

3 things i always think of doing on a weekend... but never did:

1). “Saturday Night”: Me and my two other school pals once decided to meet every Saturday night… the idea was to get boozed out, have fun, forget all tensions and above all create some memories out of our nothing life in Delhi… however after having two night outs we never met on Saturday again!!!

2). Cleaning my room: I am lazyyyyy!!!!

3). Doing my assignments: I always think of doing my assignments on weekends but I always end up doing them a night before the final submission J

3 things from my childhood that i cant forget:

1)      First painting competition: well, it was way back in 1994… a painting competition was held in my city… I stood first and my name appeared in a local news paper and a local news channel… that was my first and, unfortunately, my last brush with fame

2)      My first ball dance: Magical… absolutely magical J J

3)      Almost expelled!!!: Well, it isn’t much of a childhood story… I was in class 12^th … and was almost expelled for a minor mischief (alright, alright… it was big…but not that big that you’d expel me from the school).… luckily my ass was saved and I was able to give my boards paper :P

3 things i would never say no to 

1). Maths

2).Guitar

3). A good novel

3 things i cant live without

1). Guitar

2). My family

3). Travelling

  

The hollow ME and the shallow YOU

(First thing first...I am writing a poetry after a long time...maybe a year or so...so please dont mind if it doesnt sound nice and I know that the lyrics are too grim...but kya karu...aadat se jo majboor hu...I cant help being cynical :P)


Silly dreams and plastic smiles,
Fake promises and hollow lies,
Someday I'll bring you back,
All that you left behind

Sad eyes and crimson scar
Oh baby! Our heaven is not too far
I'll bring you back from the cold
I'll bring you back from the dead

And together we'll walk in the rain,
In the darkness of hell,
We'll kiss again
In the kingdom of Bedlam
We'll rule again

To the end of the world I'll follow you
To the end of the days I'll call you
Someday we'll be together again
Someday I'll get you
The hollow ME and the shallow YOU

Tag # 5

Ten how’s:

1. How did you get one of your scars?

I got it while shaving

2.  How did you celebrate your last birthday? 

Don’t ask… it was pathetic… all my room mates were down with fever at the same time… I spent my b’day alone roaming in the streets L

3.  How are you feeling at this moment?

Sleepy

4.  How did your night go last night?

Good… solved some quants paper...watched an episode of How I Met…and then finally went o sleep

5. How did you do in high school? 

Quite good...I was the topper of my class :D

6. How did you get the shirt you’re wearing? 

I got it from the Westside outlet in Lajpat Nagar

7. How often do you see your best friend(s)? 

I live with them

8. How much money did you spend last month? 

dunno…

9. How old do you want to be when you get married? 

30,  maybe....

10. How old will you be at your next birthday? 

Twenty one

Nine what’s:

1. Your mothers name? 

Shushma

2. What did you do last weekend?

Watched “Udaan” and “Inception”… went out shopping in Lajpat… spent some quality time with old pals :D

3. What is the most important part of your life? 

My family

4. What would you rather be doing? 

Playing guitar on my terrace 

5. What did you last cry over? 

Don’t remember

6. What always makes you feel better when you’re upset? 

Listening to music…

7. What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant othher?

Complete trust

8. What are you worried about? 

CAT

9. What did you have for breakfast? 

Chole Bhature

Eight you’s:

1. Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend? 

Yup!!! (i know what are you thinking...but men will be men :P)

2. Have you ever had your heartbroken?  

Loads of time L

3. Have you ever been out of the country? 

Yup!!

4. Have you ever done something outrageously dumb? 

Yeaah!!

5. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend? 

Nope!!!

6. Have you ever had sex on the beach? 

No…but hell yeah! I’d love to do that :D

7. Have you ever dated someone younger than you? 

Nope… actually I have never been on any date

8. Have you ever read an entire book in one day? 

Nope!!

Seven who’s:

1. Who was the last person you saw? 

Harsh  (a friend of mine)

2. Who was the last person you texted? 

A friend.

3. Who was the last person you hung out with?

  Harsh

4. Who was the last person to call you? 

My sister

5. Who did you last hug? 

Mummy

6. Who is the last person who texted you? 

Parul …(a friend)

7. Who was the last person you said “I love you” to? 

I have never told it to anyone... (I love you bolne ke pehle hi break up ho gaya :( 

Six where’s:

1. Where does your best friend(s) live?

With me

2. Where did you last go? 

To the oculist

3. Where did you last hang out? 

American center, CP

4. Where do you go to school? 

Not anymore…but it was in patna

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5. Where is your favorite place to be? 

Patna

6. Where did you sleep last night? 

In my flat…

Five do’s:

1. Do you think anyone likes you? 

Yes…girls are crazy about me :P

2. Do you ever wish you were someone else? 

Depends on my mood…but yeah!! I have wished it a lot of times 

3. Do you know the muffin man?

No… but in know the Momo man :D

4. Does the future scare you? 

Yup!!!

5. Do your parents know about your blog? 

Yup!!

Four why’s:

1. Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)? 

Because they are the only one who can bear me and my PJ's J

2. Why did you get into Blogging?

For recognition…lol…naaahh!! Just wanted a personal space for myself where I can throw out the shits from my head 

3. Why did your parents give you the name you have? 

Actually my grandpa suggested this name

4. Why are you doing this survey? 

Because I liked this Tag

Three if’s:

1. If you could have one super power what would it be? 

I'd love to fly…and go where ever and whenever I want

2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?

Only if I could….

3. If you were stranded on a deserted island and could bring 1 thing, what would you bring? 

Food…perhaps

Two would-you-ever’s:

1. Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you? 

Only if I had one…

2. Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love? 

Certainly...without a doubt

One last question:

1. Are you happy with your life right now?

I dunno…but am certainly not contend…. I want more ( a typical Leo)

The Change

They say... the only thing that's constant in life is the "change"...so why spoil "their" view... change we need and change we want

So, concerning that view... I am once again changing the name of my blog... I knw its bit lame like the previous ones... But I couldn't find a better one that defines my life... Happy Reading :P