... and here i go all over again

So I am back on blogger after a long hiatus… and guess what I am greeted with… another TAG!!!

(Thanx Shalini… thank you so much… tere bina to pata nahi mere blog ka kya hota :P)

Rules 

RULE 1- You can only say Guilty or Innocent.

RULE 2- You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!

RULE 3- Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag to your friends to answer this.

·         Asked someone to marry you? Innocent

·         Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Innocent

·         Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent

·         Ever told a lie? Guilty

·         Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty

·         Kissed a picture? Innocent

·         Slept in until 5 PM? Guilty

·         Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty

·         Held a snake? Innocent

·         Been suspended from school? Guilty

·         Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent

·         Stolen from a store? Innocent

·         Been fired from a job? Innocent

·         Done something you regret? Guilty

·         Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Guilty

·         Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Innocent

·         Kissed in the rain? Innocent

·         Sat on a roof top? Guilty

·         Kissed someone you shouldn’t? Innocent

·         Sang in the shower? Guilty

·         Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Innocent

·         Shaved your head? Innocent

·         Had a boxing membership? Innocent

·         Made a galfriend cry? Innocent

·         Been in a band? Innocent L

·         Shot a gun? Innocent

·         Donated Blood? Innocent

·         Eaten alligator meat? Innocent

·         Eaten cheesecake? Innocent

·         Still love someone you shouldn’t? Guilty

·         Have/had a tattoo? Innocent

·         Liked someone, but will never tell who? Guilty

·         Been too honest? Guilty

·         Ruined a surprise? Innocent

·         Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn’t walk afterward? Guilty

·         Erased someone in your friends list? Innocent

·         Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Innocent

·         Joined a pageant? Innocent

·         Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Innocent L

·         Had communication with your ex? Innocent

·         Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Guilty J

·         Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Guilty

I hope I have made myself very clear… n I am ready to entertain all types of queries… so please ask if you need any kinda explanation J

The Letter (part 1)

This is the first installment of the series, "The Letter", which i have started as a medium for my emotional outburst... here i'll be writing letters to people I always wanted to say something but never did...may be out of frustration...fear...idiocy...whatever...
there will be confessions, redemption, insinuation, malice...may be an apology...dunno what!!! kinda stupid, I know...but I cant help it that's how I am... :)
well, the first letter is dedicated to me...yeah, i always had something to say myself...n i guess its the time...
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Dear Me,
I don't know where to start...i know you since the day you were born...and honestly speaking, you haven't changed much since then...for you have always been like this...scared,...confused...dwelling on past...regreting about life...making alibis...and at times...egoist...
Now, i am not insinuating that its wrong to be this way...c'mon, there's nothing wrong in being sad or confused or even egoist...being a human being you ought to be like this...but close your eyes and ask yourself...do you really need to be like this!!! this world is full of problem and hardship stories and the people who overcame it...so why cant you be like them!!!
i'll tell you why... you never got time to search your own heart and fill the emptiness with love...you were too busy living the life of others that you forgot your own life...you never got time to realize your own talents coz you were too busy finding faults in others...you say you cant swim...but tell me...did you ever jump in the water!!! you say that life betrayed you...but tell me honestly...did you ever retaliate against it!!! no, you didn't... life aint that bad you consider it to be...
now take a turn and live back all those moments of your life which you left somewhere behind in pursuit of things which didn't matter in life...its time to get back everything that's been snatched away from you...c'mon, there's nothing wrong in being crazy...take chances...tell the truth...live life on the edge...fight back...hit hard...date someone totally wrong for you...go out, see the world...say no...spend all your money...fall in LOVE...feel the magic of first kiss...get to know someone random...say I LOVE YOU to someone in life...top your college...no, no top the university...be mean...make fun of people who betrayed you...laugh when you fall...sing out loud...let the world hear you...laugh at P.J's...tell the idiot how he/she hurt you...let someone know what they are missing...abuse someone who deserves it...sit alone watch the rain and cry...dance even if you suck at it...pose stupidly for picture...give someone a hug when they need it...and make sure you get back one when you need it...act like a kid...jump up and down...
live life...love it...
make the most of it...50 years from now you'll not regret it over...coz you lived your life exactly the way you wanted...
You are not a loser...you are better than anyone else..

BELIEVE IN URSELF...WHEN NOBODY ELSE DOES...KNOW THAT THERE'S SOMETHING INSIDE U WHICH IS GREATER THAN ANY OBSTACLE!!!

All the best pal, go out and live your dreams....

your best pal,

Shivam

P.S: watch out for this section...more letters to come...

TAGGED (again)

So, am tagged again...courtesy, Shalini…this girl seems on a mission to tag people…lol… chal jo bhi hai, at least there’s something to write about on my blog…bahut time se bekar padi thi…

Before I begin...here's what the Tag is all about:

Take the Honest Scrap badge from here and put it on your blogs, and tell us 10 wonderful things about you honestly that you'd like to share with us. They can be witty, funny, sad, tragic, emotional, mindless, anything.

I have done something similar in my previous blog… but who cares…I’ll do it again…

So, here it is…10 “amazing facts” about me:

1)      I love traveling… in fact it is my dream to travel the whole world… making relationships on the way…. and no strings to meet up again… but a strange bond of mutual support and security… moving with the flow of time…cool isn’t it!!

2)      I am an atheist…perhaps an agnostic, I dunno…but I certainly don’t believe in temples and worshipping idols…

3)      I am kinda expert at creating P.J’s…in fact I am the reason for some of the most technically created P.J’s of my group… lolzz

4)       I am heavily driven by my mood…I won’t do a shit until I feel like doing it…

5)      I have never told any girl “I love you”… and the closest I have ever come to any girl was during a ball dance… yeah, I know what you are thinking…“sucker”!!!

6)      I am the most confused creature you’ll ever come across… I don’t know a shit about me.

7)      I am the laziest piece of shit you’ll ever come across…its impossible to move my ass out of my bed for some work…

8)      I am mean, wicked and a complete psycho…I find peace in solitude… people often complain I don’t call…I don’t send sms…but that’s how I am…I cant change

9)      I am a big dork… I am quite attracted to geeky stuffs…I love reading novels and I watch Discovery channel in my spare time…so nerdy!!!

10)  Last but not the least, I am like a child…a bit too immature for this bitchy world… that’s why I often get stabbed by my fate… when I say I am fine that’s when I am most vulnerable…

So, that’s all folks… I left out many other facts I could have written about but I guess there’s something which is better preserved in heart… Coz that’s where they belong… Not on stupid blogs. :P

I tag to:

Shalabh Bhaiya

Oops!! its raining...

(...i did everything to avoid the rain but it just keeps pouring in... but this time wont run away... i'll soak in it...yeah i am ready this time...)




I BEGAN TO DRIFT AWAY 
LISTENING TO THE SOUND OF FALLING RAIN 
COULDN’T WAIT ANOTHER DAY 
THERE WAS NO OTHER WAY 

SAID MY GOODBYES AND NOW 
THIS JOURNEY’S JUST BEGINNING 
TIME TO MOVE ON AHEAD AND DRIVE 

IT’S RAINING NOW 
BUT I KNOW IT’S JUST A MATTER OF TIME 
LET IT POUR 
I’LL SOAK IT IN I’M READY THIS TIME 

IT’S SO UNREAL 
YET I KNEW IT ALL ALONG 
I BELIVE YOU NOW 
YOU DON’T HAVE TO SAY A THING 

NO MORE TEARS TO CRY 
NO MORE NEED TO LIE 
RIGHT NOW I’M LEAVING… FOR ME 

SAID MY GOODBYES AND NOW 
THIS JOURNEY’S JUST BEGINNING 
TIME TO MOVE ON AHEAD AND DRIVE 

IT’S RAINING NOW 
BUT I KNOW IT’S JUST A MATTER OF TIME 
LET IT POUR 
I’LL SOAK IT IN THIS TIME 


- DREAM OUT LOUD

INDIA

INDIA is celebrating 60 years of its republic today. India today is the largest democracy in the world. Being an Indian am proud of this country which educated the whole world and the ages to come.

                                                    

This is dedicated to my mother land - INDIA

The day I was born this country was born in me…yeah! I can feel it throbbing in my heart and running in my veins…I feel it with every breath of free air I take in… It is my land…my homeland…my motherland…

Every thing wrong with the country starts with me… I am responsible for everything that’s unjust with the system… I am responsible for the potholes not being made…I am responsible for the bribes being fed to the officials…I am responsible for the broken roads…I am responsible for the hollow promises made by the politicians… I am responsible for the corrupt system…I am responsible for every pending case in the court… I am everything that’s wrong with the country… it all starts with me and someday it will end with me…

I’ll wake up today…

I’ll rise today…I’ll fight today…I’ll bleed today…

This country is mine and only I can make right…

I’ll fight for everything that is mine…

I’ll bleed for everything that is right…

I’ll make it the golden bird it used to be…

I’ll be the face of India…

And the world shall see…

I am India and India is me…

JAI HIND

Oops!! I did it again…

No more stupid prologue this time…I’ll go straight to the point…

So, after 20 years of intense research and hard work am finally able to extract out some weird but interesting facts about me…

1)      I suck when I try to impress anyone…it never works… I always end up slipping on the red carpet :P

2)      No matter what I do…how much I try, gals never find me amusing…they never fall foe me…its like there’s an invisible insulation between me and gals…WTF??

3)      I hate loosing…be it games, studies, work or life…I just hate loosing…and even then I always end up on the loosing side…

4)      I am a sadist and I find peace in solitude… people often complain I don’t call…I don’t send sms…but that’s how I am…I cant change

5)      I am absolute absent minded…I always end up loosing something every now and then and it’s not until a week that I come to know about what I have lost…

6)      Ditto with relationships…first I’ll loose it and then I’ll repent about it…I always make frangible relationships L

7)      I always act without thinking about the consequences…no matter how prudent I try to be I always end up making hasty decision…and I never learn lesson from my mistakes…

8)      I am heavily driven by my mood…I won’t do a shit until I feel like doing it…

9)      I am the laziest piece of shit you’ll ever come across…its impossible to move my ass out of my bed for some work…specially on a cold January morning

10)  I don’t start studying unless and until my ass is on fire…say a week before exams…and it doesn’t need a mention that I always get screwed in my exams..

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      420) I always waste my time writing 420 points about some stupid self                  discovery…when I know its total crap and wastage of time

P.S: I am really running out of ideas on my blog…I should rather spend my time studying CAT material…but then I cant help being cynical :P

Idiosyncrasies of a Jinxed life

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Feeling really fucked up these days…things just refuse to go my way…as if ...as if  destiny is plotting against me…why it’s always me …why it’s always me being punished for the sins I never committed…its like a series of scripted destiny and am trapped…unable to escape out of my jinxed life…

Say...

• The moment I landed my foot in Delhi, in November, the charger of my lappie blew up…it burnt my wallet with a whooping 3000 bucks to get a new one… WTF??? (thanx to my room mates, they contributed)

• It was not even one month since the incident that this time my lappie broke down…WTF again??? dunno how much it would cost me to repair it…(I still haven’t repaired it)…

• As if this was not enough…my tests for jaundice came positive… (10 times the normal value…sucked through the whole winter vacations)

• Meanwhile, our landlord told us to vacate the flat (sale, Saini teri to…#@$***…fuck you…burn in hell)…though we got a new one only to find that it has increased our monthly expenditure by 1500 bucks…

• And if you think this is it, then lemme tell u that picture abhi baki hai mere dost…the main villain was INTERNALS…I screwed it big time…and when I say big time I mean it…it was disastrous…it was tragedy…10 sleepless nights+ chilly mornings + spending 50 bucks daily on auto = total waste…I let myself down…once again…

well, there are several other trivial issues am not mentioning  …but am sure that it aint over... dunno what else is left to see.... arrrrrggghhhhhhh!!!! Am feeling jinxed :(