Before I begin…let me tell you that its an another sad post…so if you don’t want to spoil your “happy happy” mood then please don’t read it…it might irritate you as to why I always write these kinda stuffs…so its for you to decide to read it or not.. and don’t blame me for putting these posts up coz I feel like writing only when I am sad… :X …whom am I saying this!!!...nobody reads my blog…(Shalini, you are an exception)
Enough gyan!!!
Life is strange …… it has its own funny way of presenting things… things you never thought would happen in your life… things you never thought you would do in million years…but they happen…and they change your life forever…
life never works according to the plan…it never has and it never will…everybody knows it…then why do we feel sad and depressed when our plans don’t work… strange it may sound but this is how life works… I am not complaining that it hasn’t worked for me again…its just that it always happens with me…and each time it hurts even more than before…I often wonder why its always me who is at the receiving end…Should I become numb to all emotions?? Am I a stupidly poignant person who just doesn’t know how to handle his feelings?? Am I an over desperate person?? Or may be I am just a jerk who is always at the wrong place at the wrong time!!!! Whatever, I dunno… people often say that I am not mature enough that’s why I end up like in these situations… they say that I am still a kiddo… a child at heart… they think I am a callow…but I don’t think so… I mean yes…I do agree that my heart is a child…a part which refuses to grow up!!! but there’s a part of me that understand emotions and better than anyone else... there’s a part which is mature enough to understand people… a part that can read faces even with my eyes closed … a part which if, once, decides to achieve something, ends up achieving it… a part that nobody knows…a part that I don’t show to anyone… and those who know me well would know what I am talking about…
Nitish, my best buddy, always says that I don’t share my pains with anyone… I’ll just write some stupid blogs and grim poetries which nobody reads… I know a person reading this post wouldn’t agree but I am a very happy-go-lucky guy…always in that usual gala mood… but when it comes to that “sad version” of me, I myself don’t know as to why don’t share or tell anyone about my feelings…maybe this is why my pain intensifies…but, this is how I have always been…and I cant change overnight…but someday I will…I’ll have to… a lot of things has to be changed now…and I guess, I need the change…as I said, some incidents change your life forever… may be its the time to change mine…
And I know that my loved one’s will always be there for me…and for my support…and though there are only few people who really love and care for me…I don’t mind the number…as long as they love me…and it includes you too…if you have read this post till the end…coz only a loved one will put aside his ego and stand there beside you in spite of all your imperfections…in spite of all your failures… in spite of all your mistakes…
Thanx for bearing with me :) I hope that the change will bring good to me…
P.S: please don’t ask me the reasons for this post… you know, I won’t tell…
