WAITING FOR THE LIGHT

Hmmmm…have you ever wondered why were you born?? The reason of your genesis on this planet…well, I often think about it..and unfortunately I haven’t found the answer yet…The more I try to understand myself, the more I get confused…yeah, I guess am too stupid to know myself..but am not the only one…I know there are millions like me out there in this world…but who cares,huh!!
Even after living for 20 odd years am still a total stranger to myself…I still haven’t figured out what I want from life.. I am a very restless person…I like to engage in some kind of activity… I have varied intrests…I hate the monotony of doing same kinda work over n over again…I cant do a typical 9 to 9 job… I mean there is a part of me that wants to write, a part that wants to create music, a part that wants to see the world, a part that wants to study, a part that wants to paint….so, forcing myself in one kinda activity would kill off large parts off me…that,s why I play guitar, I write poetries, I study a lot, I make sketchings, I cry a lot n I laugh a a lot….in short I do everything I like to keep my mind aloof from the daily shits of life…
But am still haunted by the question, “Who am I”…I have traveled places, I have made some strange decisions (some stupid too), I gave up love, I accepted pain, I asked from fools, I asked from the sages…but none of them seemed to satisfy my heart.
People think they know me but they don’t…They only see what I want them to see…am still waiting for the light of enlightment…

am two person in one..
one happy one sad....
two sides of me..
one mad nd one glad..

there is only one side..
i try to let show....
my feelings inside..
the others dont know...

i m two person in one..
as strange as that sounds..
the real me inside...
no one has found...