Wake me up when december ends!!!

Before I begin…let me tell you that its an another sad post…so if you don’t want to spoil your “happy happy” mood then please don’t read it…it might irritate you as to why I always write these kinda stuffs…so its for you to decide to read it or not.. and don’t blame me for putting these posts up coz I feel like writing only when I am sad… :X …whom am I saying this!!!...nobody reads my blog…(Shalini, you are an exception)

Enough gyan!!!

Life is  strange …… it has its own funny way of presenting things… things you never thought would happen in your life… things you  never thought you would do in million years…but they happen…and they change your life forever…

life never works according to the plan…it never has and it never will…everybody knows it…then why do we feel sad and depressed when our plans don’t work… strange it may sound but this is how life works… I am not complaining that it hasn’t worked for me again…its just that it always happens with me…and each time it hurts even more than before…I often wonder why its always me who is at the receiving end…Should I become numb to all emotions?? Am I a stupidly poignant person who just doesn’t know how to handle his feelings?? Am I an over desperate person?? Or may be I am just a jerk who is always at the wrong place at the wrong time!!!! Whatever,  I dunno… people often say that I am not mature enough that’s why I end up like in these situations… they say that I am still a kiddo… a child at heart… they think I am a callow…but I don’t think so… I mean yes…I do agree that my heart is a child…a part which refuses to grow up!!! but there’s a part of me that understand emotions and better than anyone else... there’s a part which is mature enough to understand people… a part that can read faces even with my eyes closed … a part which if, once, decides to achieve something, ends up achieving it… a part that nobody knows…a part that I don’t show to anyone… and those who know me well would know what I am talking about…

Nitish, my best buddy, always says that I don’t share my pains with anyone… I’ll just write some stupid blogs and grim poetries which nobody reads… I know a person reading this post wouldn’t agree but I am a very happy-go-lucky guy…always in that usual gala mood… but when it comes to that “sad version” of me, I myself don’t know as to why don’t share or tell anyone about my feelings…maybe this is why my pain intensifies…but, this is how I have always been…and I cant change overnight…but someday I will…I’ll have to… a lot of things has to be changed now…and I guess, I need the change…as I said, some incidents change your life forever… may be its the time to change mine…

And I know that my loved one’s will always be there for me…and for my support…and though there are only few people who really love and care for me…I don’t mind the number…as long as they love me…and it includes you too…if you have read this post till the end…coz only a loved one will put aside his ego and stand there beside you in spite of all your imperfections…in spite of all your failures… in spite of all your mistakes…

Thanx for bearing with me :) I hope that the change will bring good to me…

P.S: please don’t ask me the reasons for this post… you know, I won’t tell…

FLOWERS IN DECEMBER

Empty it was…empty it is…and perhaps, empty it shall be… yup!! I am talking about the month of December…I dunno how but somehow the month of December brings out the feeling vast emptiness that lies hidden, somewhere, within me… ironic and absurd it may sound but this emptiness kinda makes me feel complete… yeah, it does… and somehow I relate to this cold season more than anybody/anything else in the world… it reminds me of good old days, the shenanigans of life and more importantly, it reminds me of the stories that remained unfinished…
December....it truly is a magical month...at least for me 

Anyways, keeping this crap a little short, I wanna dedicate a song to the month of December and to the “stories that remained unfinished”…it’s called “Flowers in December” by Mazzy Star…i hope you will like it...njoy the song

FLOWERS IN DECEMBER

Before I let you down again,
I just want to see you in your eyes.
I wouldn't have taken everything out on you,
I only thought you could understand.

they say every man goes blind in his heart,
and they say everybody steals somebody's heart away.
and I got nothing more to say about it
nothing more than you would me.

send me your flowers of your december,
send me your dreams of your candied wine.
I've got just one thing I can't give you...
just one more thing of mine

they say every man goes blind in his heart
and they say everybody steals somebody's heart away
and I've been wondering why you let me down
and I've been taking it all for granted

P.S: no, I am not drunk…just feeling a bit high J

P.P.S: out of all the things that I am gonna leave behind... I’ll miss Delhi’s winter the most L

3x7

Another TAG!!!

In this one, there are 7 lists and you have to fill in three things in each one...the rules are as follows:

- Tag as many u want!

- Link their pages in your tag post

- Post a message / leave a comment screaming that they r tagged

- Mention the person who tagged you in your tag post, and link their blog.

- Write 3 X 7 things about yourself ..

3 places i would pack my travel bag for:

1). Any hill station: I just love hill stations…be it Dajeeling or Patnitop or Shimla...

2). Berlin: well, I am very interested in the Nazis and the World War 2 stuffs…

3). Cayman Islands: I have heard a lot about the place… and it’s said to have one of the most beautiful islands in the world

3 On-Screen characters i love to watch :

1). Barney Stinson: I love this character…he’s cool, witty, a womanizer,a top executive in a bank…in short he is everything I am not and everything that I wish to be J

2). Lizzie McGuire: Lizzie McGuire, played  by Hilary Duff, used to be my crush in high school… and I still love her :P

3). Al Pcino: Oh boy!! He is “The Godfather”… Al Pacino has immortalized his character of Michael Corleone… truly, he's the God of acting   

3 moods that describes me the best  :

1)      Happy Go Lucky: I am usually in a happy go lucky mood…

2)     Confused: I am perennially confused… right from deciding my dinner to the aim of my life… I am CONFUSED :P

3)      LAZY: I am Lazyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!

                                                                     

3 things i always think of doing on a weekend... but never did:

1). “Saturday Night”: Me and my two other school pals once decided to meet every Saturday night… the idea was to get boozed out, have fun, forget all tensions and above all create some memories out of our nothing life in Delhi… however after having two night outs we never met on Saturday again!!!

2). Cleaning my room: I am lazyyyyy!!!!

3). Doing my assignments: I always think of doing my assignments on weekends but I always end up doing them a night before the final submission J

3 things from my childhood that i cant forget:

1)      First painting competition: well, it was way back in 1994… a painting competition was held in my city… I stood first and my name appeared in a local news paper and a local news channel… that was my first and, unfortunately, my last brush with fame

2)      My first ball dance: Magical… absolutely magical J J

3)      Almost expelled!!!: Well, it isn’t much of a childhood story… I was in class 12^th … and was almost expelled for a minor mischief (alright, alright… it was big…but not that big that you’d expel me from the school).… luckily my ass was saved and I was able to give my boards paper :P

3 things i would never say no to 

1). Maths

2).Guitar

3). A good novel

3 things i cant live without

1). Guitar

2). My family

3). Travelling

  

The hollow ME and the shallow YOU

(First thing first...I am writing a poetry after a long time...maybe a year or so...so please dont mind if it doesnt sound nice and I know that the lyrics are too grim...but kya karu...aadat se jo majboor hu...I cant help being cynical :P)


Silly dreams and plastic smiles,
Fake promises and hollow lies,
Someday I'll bring you back,
All that you left behind

Sad eyes and crimson scar
Oh baby! Our heaven is not too far
I'll bring you back from the cold
I'll bring you back from the dead

And together we'll walk in the rain,
In the darkness of hell,
We'll kiss again
In the kingdom of Bedlam
We'll rule again

To the end of the world I'll follow you
To the end of the days I'll call you
Someday we'll be together again
Someday I'll get you
The hollow ME and the shallow YOU

Tag # 5

Ten how’s:

1. How did you get one of your scars?

I got it while shaving

2.  How did you celebrate your last birthday? 

Don’t ask… it was pathetic… all my room mates were down with fever at the same time… I spent my b’day alone roaming in the streets L

3.  How are you feeling at this moment?

Sleepy

4.  How did your night go last night?

Good… solved some quants paper...watched an episode of How I Met…and then finally went o sleep

5. How did you do in high school? 

Quite good...I was the topper of my class :D

6. How did you get the shirt you’re wearing? 

I got it from the Westside outlet in Lajpat Nagar

7. How often do you see your best friend(s)? 

I live with them

8. How much money did you spend last month? 

dunno…

9. How old do you want to be when you get married? 

30,  maybe....

10. How old will you be at your next birthday? 

Twenty one

Nine what’s:

1. Your mothers name? 

Shushma

2. What did you do last weekend?

Watched “Udaan” and “Inception”… went out shopping in Lajpat… spent some quality time with old pals :D

3. What is the most important part of your life? 

My family

4. What would you rather be doing? 

Playing guitar on my terrace 

5. What did you last cry over? 

Don’t remember

6. What always makes you feel better when you’re upset? 

Listening to music…

7. What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant othher?

Complete trust

8. What are you worried about? 

CAT

9. What did you have for breakfast? 

Chole Bhature

Eight you’s:

1. Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend? 

Yup!!! (i know what are you thinking...but men will be men :P)

2. Have you ever had your heartbroken?  

Loads of time L

3. Have you ever been out of the country? 

Yup!!

4. Have you ever done something outrageously dumb? 

Yeaah!!

5. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend? 

Nope!!!

6. Have you ever had sex on the beach? 

No…but hell yeah! I’d love to do that :D

7. Have you ever dated someone younger than you? 

Nope… actually I have never been on any date

8. Have you ever read an entire book in one day? 

Nope!!

Seven who’s:

1. Who was the last person you saw? 

Harsh  (a friend of mine)

2. Who was the last person you texted? 

A friend.

3. Who was the last person you hung out with?

  Harsh

4. Who was the last person to call you? 

My sister

5. Who did you last hug? 

Mummy

6. Who is the last person who texted you? 

Parul …(a friend)

7. Who was the last person you said “I love you” to? 

I have never told it to anyone... (I love you bolne ke pehle hi break up ho gaya :( 

Six where’s:

1. Where does your best friend(s) live?

With me

2. Where did you last go? 

To the oculist

3. Where did you last hang out? 

American center, CP

4. Where do you go to school? 

Not anymore…but it was in patna

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5. Where is your favorite place to be? 

Patna

6. Where did you sleep last night? 

In my flat…

Five do’s:

1. Do you think anyone likes you? 

Yes…girls are crazy about me :P

2. Do you ever wish you were someone else? 

Depends on my mood…but yeah!! I have wished it a lot of times 

3. Do you know the muffin man?

No… but in know the Momo man :D

4. Does the future scare you? 

Yup!!!

5. Do your parents know about your blog? 

Yup!!

Four why’s:

1. Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)? 

Because they are the only one who can bear me and my PJ's J

2. Why did you get into Blogging?

For recognition…lol…naaahh!! Just wanted a personal space for myself where I can throw out the shits from my head 

3. Why did your parents give you the name you have? 

Actually my grandpa suggested this name

4. Why are you doing this survey? 

Because I liked this Tag

Three if’s:

1. If you could have one super power what would it be? 

I'd love to fly…and go where ever and whenever I want

2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?

Only if I could….

3. If you were stranded on a deserted island and could bring 1 thing, what would you bring? 

Food…perhaps

Two would-you-ever’s:

1. Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you? 

Only if I had one…

2. Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love? 

Certainly...without a doubt

One last question:

1. Are you happy with your life right now?

I dunno…but am certainly not contend…. I want more ( a typical Leo)

The Change

They say... the only thing that's constant in life is the "change"...so why spoil "their" view... change we need and change we want

So, concerning that view... I am once again changing the name of my blog... I knw its bit lame like the previous ones... But I couldn't find a better one that defines my life... Happy Reading :P

The Photograph

(Off lately I have been posting some stupid and prosaic stuffs on my blog… and this post is just a reminder of the fact that I am going to continue with that: P)

Things change… people change… they are never supposed to be the same forever… and there are days …days which remind you those things, those moments and those people…  yeah, the days when you feel like taking out your old and dusty acoustic guitar and strumming it again… the days when feel like paddling your old and rusted bicycle back on road… and the days when you feel like picking up the phone and calling your long lost friend from school who had almost forgotten you… and there are days when you come across an old photograph, just by a chance, and your mind is flooded by the old memories…

Well,it was just an usual lazy Sunday afternoon… I was browsing through some old photographs when out of no where I found this…

(The picture was taken outside Sarojini Nagar reservation counter more than a year and a half ago…The picture itself has a long story behind it… and it led to many other… but more on that later )

So, where was I ?? yes, The first year in Delhi… the fights… the break up… recoincilation… the booze mishap…DreamBig…. B-4...the terrace…it all came back… those good old sanguine days…the time when ignorance was bliss… absolute bliss… you know what I mean!! … fresh out of school…and the innocence was still not lost…when the only thing you worried about was your marks…and the only thing that was broken were your  pencils…yeah, the same good old days when there was no sense of responsibility… and friends were just friends… when bunking a class was the most daring job and and drinking beer was considered a cardinal sin…

Well, the world was pretty  small then… it still is… but it wasn’t a matter of choice then

How can I forget those days… living away from family for the first time…doing all kinda crazy stuffs…it reminds me of a lot of things… the crazy January mornings…and the weird December nights when the three of us used to hangout till midnight…the first time I stayed awake for a whole night…(naah!! It wasn’t for study…was watching movies)…the first time I had a beer … and the first time I smoked…the crazy Vodka party where I kept puking through the whole night…it was hilarious… that tacit relationship of love… and how can I ever forget those “DreamBig” moments…and ironically it all seems like a dream now…

But as it turns out, it wasn’t all about sweet dream…there were some nightmares too… there are parts I hate to remember… the heartbreak… the hollow lies… the fights… and crying all night…and how I screwed up my INTERNALS…the exams…(I still regret those marks) *sigh*…

Yet the impression of being there and experiencing those indelible and ephemeral moments is something that words don’t seem enough to express it at all… something which can never be effaced… something which is immortal… and as I write this, a feeling of sheer nostalgia grips me

You know… somehow I miss those days… that innocence… that recklessness… that freedom… and above all… I miss that frienship… I miss that old me…I miss it… very much…  

Its strange… how a simple and old photograph can lead back you to so many stories and memories… that’s why I love browsing through my old photographs… but you know what’s the best thing about old photographs!!! Well, the best thing about them is that it always remains the same even if the persons in the picture changes… I wish they hadn’t…

LOL!!!

well, its an another tag... and i guess it doesn't even need a mention who tagged me..and i am not surprised by this tag... it was just a matter of time... mahine me ek do tag to mil hi jate hai

so.. this is the most weird one but who cares... lets go with it

Mention 9 things that you've worn the most. They could be anything!!!

dragonball z pullover- i love it

My boxers- you can always find me roaming in my house wearing

these boxers

My specs- i have been wearing them for about 8 years

My Calvin Klein jeans- yeah, its the same jeans i bought on that night

My school dress- I wore it for many years (I hope school dress includes this tag :P)

My aviator sunglasses

My Adidas watch- i love wearing watches

Last but not the least... my prized Jockey undies- Next best thing is to be naked :P

P.S: k... so i was supposed  to mention 9 things that i have worn the most... and i have mentioned only 8... and u know why!!! coz i don't care... it took me more than one hour to collect these stuffs and with a wardrobe as boring and stupid as mine even these 8 things are more than enough :)

P.P.S: this tag was the most stupid...most weird  most irritating yet the most interesting one... it was fun doing this tag...

DUNHILL DREAMS

Strange things happen when you take alcohol after a long time… naah!! This is my story…Strange things happen when I take alcohol after a long time…I just can’t handle the situation… I loose my mind… loose my capacity to reason…  I speak and do stupid stuffs… become verbose… in short it’s great!!! Coz sooner or later I realize that all the things I did while being high were not stupid…may be weird but not stupid…

I mean for a person like me, who thinks too much, alcohol is the only way to loose his mind… and when I loose my mind I stop thinking… and when I stop thinking I DO things… things I wouldn’t have dared to do with my sane mind… it makes me feel free, makes me pretend less and makes me feel like I can do anything…

It was one such night… I was alone in my apartment… all my room mates were in their home town…I was feeling lonely and all sorts of worry engulfed my mind… and then I did something which I usually don’t do when I am alone… I went to the market and got my self a pint of strong beer… now that was a stupid decision considering that I am quite sensitive to alcohol… I just cannot handle it… but then, I was alone and feeling scared and lonely… scared of what, I don’t know

And I remember it was exactly 6 p.m … I got the beer and drank the whole bottle one gulp…ok…fine… may be I am exaggerating a bit… but it was not more than 3-4 gulp that I finished the bottle… and the first thing I wanted to do after that was… to run to the bathroom and throw out… thankfully I didn’t throw out… I was like drinking beer after a gap of 6-7 months and my body certainly didn’t like it…

And after 20-25 mins I like completely lost my mind… i don’t exactly remember what I did next… since I was all by myself I don’t remember much… I just have a hazy picture of that evening in my mind… I remember that I went to an ATM and took out few bucks from my account… and then I went to some shop and bought my self a tee and a Calvin Klein jeans… next I remember I was in a restaurant… don’t exactly remember what I ate… and then  I was back in my apartment… I was holding a packet of Dunhill cigarettes in one hand and some chocolates in the other… and then I did… I did something very embarrassing… I removed off my clothes and went to the terrace… yeah you read it right…every single piece of cloth from  my body… it was dark and I was all into myself… and I didn’t care a bit if anyone saw me naked…seriously!! I did it… I know it’s cheap and pathetic thing to do…dunno what was goin through my mind at that time… but I did it… then I went to the terrace and took out a cigarette… I smoked some 3-4 cigarettes… (I don’t smoke… I hate it… but as I said, I lost my senses and capacity to reason…)… listenened to some rock music on my cell…and WHAM!!!... the next thing I remember was that it was 11 am, the next day, and I was on my bed (and thank God, this time with all my clothes on)…

I don’t remember how I came down and when I put my clothes on… I checked my cell phone… and the balance was nil… I had almost 50 bucks in my cell phone the night before… and it was all gone… I checked my records… and guess who I called!!!... HER!!! I don’t remember anything that I said her… I never asked her and she never told me… but must be something stupid… Ah!! Who knows…?

Next, I rushed to the ATM to check my balance… coz I remembered I had done something stupid with my ATM card… and as it turned out… my balance was Rs. 75…yeah, I spent some 1700 bucks in one night…

So, there I was… standing in the middle of the road… all broke and penniless with just Rs. 20 in my wallet … mind sick with hangover… head spinning with headache… and yet I was feeling happy… coz at that moment I was feeling free… no burden what so ever…I didn’t care if I’ll make it to the best MBA college… I didn’t care if I’ll earn six figure monthly salary… I didn’t care if I’ll make a girlfriend… I didn’t care at all about my fucked up college life… all I knew was that I am free… nobody can force things on me…nobody…not even my destiny…and even if it does, eventually I’ll make it out… and with slowly and heavy footsteps I started walking towards my apartment…only this time I was lighter than ever before…

P.S- you might be wondering why this post is called “Dunhill Dreams”… well, there’s a part of story that I skipped… I had a dream while I was having those Dunhill cigarettes… I don’t remember much… may be that was just a hallucination… but I saw something like a penthouse… Manhattan city… the sky scrapers… and a beautiful girl lying by my side… well, actually I do remember what I saw… but its all I am going to say to you… its not that I don’t want to say to you… but its just that I cant explain it in a blog… you have to be here with me to feel it

P.P.S- this blog is not an implication that beer can make you happy…it screws up your mind…its bad… but what I want to say is that if you want to be happy… feel free…its easy if you try… and you don’t need a beer to do it… all that you need is a spirited heart and a spirited mind and the world will be your oyster

Zzzzz...

5^th May 2010

(well, i wrote this blog about a month ago...just posting it over here a little late..

You might be wondering why this post is called “Zzzzzz…”…  well, I was actually half asleep when I wrote this blog… lame reason I know but that’s how I am)

As I sit by my window, I see the rising sun at the horizon…gleaming in its golden color…its beautiful, its bright, its strong…its…its overwhelming...its…its bullshit!!!

Absolute bullshit!!!

Why am I being so poetic!!!…I mean…I  never see the rising sun…coz when its rising I am in my bed… I guess it’s coz of the beer,  I had last night… ufff!!! I still have the headache… its tough to handle alcohol when you are taking it after a long time…

Anyways, am quite busy these dayz… things arent going too smooth… Trying hard to achieve my “Dunhill Dreams”…( well, for those who don’t know what “Dunhill Dreams” is… better be ignorant… and those who know about it… please keep motivating me to realise it)

Meanwhile, I gave my 2^nd year examinations… hope to be in 3^rd year next semester… screwed up some of the papers…rest were fine…

Two years…hmmm… I cant believe I spent two years at that place… and now when I look back, it all seems hazy and diminished… no real college life to remember… no group… no hangouts…the only memory I have my college life is that of attending  boring lectures and listening to the proffesors who know everything but their syllabus… it was like watching news on doordarshan in infinite loop… I hope that things will get better in the 3^rd year…

CAT paper is due this December… I’ll have to work very hard to make it to the top 10 MBA colleges…yeah that what I am aiming for

What else… feeling real sleepy now!!! Meet ya next time…hic… (hangover still hasn’t passed)

Good night!!! go to sleep...

..all that i am and all that i ever was

DATE:  sometime in 2010

(I never felt  the need to explain myself…  but sometimes life ask questions and you need to answer them… and this time its my turn)

I aint a saint, I aint a philosopher…

I aint a bohemian, I aint an evangelist…

I aint a rockstar, I aint a masochist…

I aint a leader, I aint a follower…

I no not who I am!!!

 Flaunting is not my fate… I don’t smoke Dunhill and I am not a chain smoker…

I don’t drink vodka and puke on road…

I do things I like… I do things the way I want ‘em to… not the way the way they are supposed to…

I write poetries but I feel shy when it comes to talking to a girl…

I play guitar but I do it only when I am alone…

I don’t live a life to inspire others… I do what I feel is right… I rarely comb my hair and I don’t give a shit what people think about me… I don’t listen to Lady Gaga just coz everybody is doing it… and I don’t  have fetish for six pack abs… As I said, flaunting is not my fate…

I am simple… I am ordinary… I am indifferent… you might not even notice me in the faceless crowd… but once you do, I guarantee, you will never forget me…

I believe in “ME”… I believe in moving on with life… even if it means walking alone… I don’t wait for anyone or anything… I don’t shed tears for the things that I have I lost and relationships that have rusted…  I don’t show my emotions but that doesn’t meant am not vulnerable… I may seem like an egoist but am not …all I care about is my destination and the thousand miles that’s lying in between…

I wont deny my love for material luxury… I have fetish for flashy cars and big mansions… but that’s coz I have seen monetary constrains in my life and I want to rise above it…

Someday… maybe someday I’ll live out all my dreams…  I’ll make my kingdom out of scrap… out of nowhere I’ll find a way… and I won’t rest until I’ve got what’s mine…

Yeah…that’s how I am…and that’s how I have lived my life…

You may love me…you may hate me… you may like me… you may despise me… but in the end…i'll be all that  I am and all that I ever was!!!!  

... and here i go all over again

So I am back on blogger after a long hiatus… and guess what I am greeted with… another TAG!!!

(Thanx Shalini… thank you so much… tere bina to pata nahi mere blog ka kya hota :P)

Rules 

RULE 1- You can only say Guilty or Innocent.

RULE 2- You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!

RULE 3- Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag to your friends to answer this.

·         Asked someone to marry you? Innocent

·         Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Innocent

·         Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent

·         Ever told a lie? Guilty

·         Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty

·         Kissed a picture? Innocent

·         Slept in until 5 PM? Guilty

·         Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty

·         Held a snake? Innocent

·         Been suspended from school? Guilty

·         Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent

·         Stolen from a store? Innocent

·         Been fired from a job? Innocent

·         Done something you regret? Guilty

·         Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Guilty

·         Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Innocent

·         Kissed in the rain? Innocent

·         Sat on a roof top? Guilty

·         Kissed someone you shouldn’t? Innocent

·         Sang in the shower? Guilty

·         Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Innocent

·         Shaved your head? Innocent

·         Had a boxing membership? Innocent

·         Made a galfriend cry? Innocent

·         Been in a band? Innocent L

·         Shot a gun? Innocent

·         Donated Blood? Innocent

·         Eaten alligator meat? Innocent

·         Eaten cheesecake? Innocent

·         Still love someone you shouldn’t? Guilty

·         Have/had a tattoo? Innocent

·         Liked someone, but will never tell who? Guilty

·         Been too honest? Guilty

·         Ruined a surprise? Innocent

·         Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn’t walk afterward? Guilty

·         Erased someone in your friends list? Innocent

·         Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Innocent

·         Joined a pageant? Innocent

·         Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Innocent L

·         Had communication with your ex? Innocent

·         Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Guilty J

·         Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Guilty

I hope I have made myself very clear… n I am ready to entertain all types of queries… so please ask if you need any kinda explanation J