No longer to be poisoned by civilization, he flees and walks alone upon the land to become…Lost In The Wild…
- Christopher Johnson McCandeless
I certainly ain't lost in the wild…but, you must be wondering why I am quoting these lines…you must be thinking, its perhaps another of his joyless psychoanalysis about life… another punch of frustration over the system and life…
Naaahhh!! Not this time...Because this time I am feeling free…yes, there’s a sense of brutal independence and liberty in my veins and heart…and its perhaps for the first time in my life..
Last few days of my life have been quite lonesome and empty…spending the myriad hours of my life lying over my bed thinking and feeling absolutely nothing but the emptiness and the numbness that surrounds me every fucking second…and…and it’s a pure bliss…yup, it’s a pure bliss being cut down from the world…and the sickening bondages of life….
I have totally cut down myself from this so called real world…I have stopped making or receiving calls…no orkutting…no facebook…no texting…nothing…I have abandoned almost everything that links me to the outside world…
And what comes after this, is a feeling of utter independence…a sense of realism…a feeling which only a free man can feel…a man free from the social chains…free from bondages…free from civilization…free from money and power…free from the daily bullshits that binds every social animal…
Yes, it’s a sense of complete self involvement…where I am my only best friend…it’s a sense of utopia…and a sense of complete fearlessness…
I feel so complete…I can now listen to every sound that I never even bothered listening to before…like sound of rain drops falling on roof… sound of mournful cold December winds…sound of nature…sound of my own footsteps…sound of my heartbeat beating against my chest…sound of silence…and the sound which I missed the most…sound of my inner self…sound of my own soul that I always ignored, complaining of noise…
Books, blanket, music and my guitar…its all I have by my side…its all I need… may be I am sounding like dick right now to most of you… but its hard to explain what I feel now…and it’s even hard to explain what I see now…
I dunno for how long I would be this way…coz someday or the other I’ll have return to this bitchy world again and wear those social chain as ornaments of civilization…
Honestly speaking I don’t give a shit…that’s for the time to decide….
I dunno much about happiness or how one should live his life…but what I do know now, is that there is a sense of happiness in emptiness…a sense of fulfillment…and I also know now, how important it is for a man to feel free…to break free from the crowd and feel his individual self…to find himself at lest once in the crowd…at least once in his lifetime…
3 comments:
its so very true...and so unfortunate that only few of them will understand whats written out here by my dear friend..."unfortunately no one can be told what the matrix is...you have to see it for yourself" this dialogue of Matrix best describes the above lines...matrix being the outside world...the society in which you are hardly living as YOU...you have to come out of it to see what the matrix is.
guru ji
ur gr8
*i take a bow*
This one's surely a masterpiece...
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