YELLOW!!!!

I guess its gonna be an another long n fucked up winter holiday…while the whole world’s celebrating Christmas n new year…here I am lying on my bed…battling with jaundice…no celebration, no cakes, no party, no hangouts…nothing…its just me and the whole world to think about…am screwed…really!!! And to make it worst…my internals are starting from 8th jan…I have no damn idea as to how am I gonna perform there.

I dunno why it always happens with me…every year I hav to go thru some kinda physical and mental torture (apart from the heart breaks)… first it was the Appendix operation in ’05, then it was kidney stone in ’06…then jaundice + typhoid in ’07 and its jaundice again in ’09…

Really pisses me off…and makes me wonder if am I jinxed or what!!! I don’t smoke…I don’t drink…(o.k may be sometimes, in fact rarely)…I am not a drug addict…I usually eat home made food…and am still a virgin…(WTF, what the hell virginity has got to do with it)… then why its only me being punished for sins I haven’t committed…why does it always rain on me…

But I am not gonna give up…no! I wont…I’ll fight, even if it means fighting till my last breath (which I feel is not too far away, the way am going)…I am gonna live up to the every challenge that life throws on to my face…yeah, c’mon hit me!!! I am ready…
Aur waise bhi I guess I am being to pessimist… life sucks but it aint that bad…they say every cloud has a silver lining and even though am not able figure out the silver lining…lets not loose hope…I guess now I hav an excuse if I get poor marks in the internals…

And for all of my faithful readers…just pray for that I get well soon…

p.s: This winter is going to be the coldest one… and the loneliest one.